As everyone knows, I always try to be positive. (You have no idea how hard I try) But this morning as I was dressing I thought, "If there is an expiration date for people, I am past mine." Maybe I heard that somewhere, I don't know, but I feel like mold is starting to grow in different places.
I thought about what my friend Yvonne said, "I miss who I used to be." Yep, that's it. I miss the woman who loved walking in the woods, shopping at the mall and traveling afar. Where did she go? I have no idea. The person I am today needs an atomic bomb to get out of her chair.
I will say that two things have gotten better as I slump along in my sixties: Blogging and sex. Reading people's blogs is so much fun. It is the one thing I look forward to each day. I just love you all so much, even the crabby people because you make me laugh at life. And sex is better because practice makes perfect! (Too much information? sorry)
I went outside this morning and the birds are singing, the sun is shining and my house is clean. God is here and I am loved by him and many people; I guess I'll just slowly rot surrounded by good things and be happy with this different life I am living and try not to turn into a moldy old crab apple.
Mea Culpa: I wrote this earlier when I was feeling all old and crabby. I should delete it, but I hate to waste all that time and energy! I know how lucky I am, I know I am blessed, I know my life is better than most people's; I'm just aging and feeling it right now.
